As 2012 winds down I am feeling a bit reflective about everything. My goal this year was to be ” in the moment” with my life and I feel like I did do a better job of at least that. Being completely aware of what was going on around me, really listening to people’s story, looking them in the eyes and not saying anything that I didn’t mean. I know that sounds so silly but I found out when my mom and brother died close together, that one of my coping skills was to just check out, file it away for another day…. but that day did come and boy did it hit me hard. So I check my internal email regularly and I found some really amazing things…….
* Despite my thinking that I am a introverted loner, I found out that I do better one on one with friends, just so I can focus on them and completely enjoy their company. My circle has widened and the friendships are deeper and more wonderful than I could imagine.
* I cannot deny my roots, not that I ever tried, but I constantly go back to them. The places, the people, the memories….. they are a part of me and I am a part of them. They have a great deal to do with who I am and where I am headed. Which just reminds me that nothing is an accident, and sometimes you can see how your past intersects with your future. I call it a God breeze.
* I found out that there is an explorer in me , I want to reconnect with the world around me and spend more time outdoors, noticing the small and big things that evidence our Creator’s hand. I have missed that and I really feel the void. There was a time when I spent more time outdoors than in and there is somethings soothing about being outside. I spend a lot of time inside, working in a shop, painting in my girlcave and quite frankly on this ipad. Note to self…. turn off technology more and play outside more!
I know I am rambling on but thought I would think aloud one more time before the year changes hands. God’s blessings to you and I hope 2013 is illuminating for all of us. : ) Suz